Post by mysteryeyesxx on Feb 20, 2013 16:09:14 GMT
How to start this of _
I met my children daddy in 2001 same yr i left school dec 17th i was 16 coming on 17 _ he was 20yrs older than me and i fell hook line and sinker _ i was very popular outgoing and very lively _ everything was very good until one night and that night he smashed my head agaist a brick wal voilently and it wasnt once - he then grab me by the throat and said your mine i was scared - all my power backbone went that night! He then took me back in his home where he voilenty kicked me in my back with steel cap boots on! By then i could feel i needed help - how i survive that attack i dont know myself! Was someone keeping me alive?
I had alot of injuries when i got into hosiptal i was in pretty bad way i was 18 me and the him stayed together i believe i could change him - silly hey nobody can change apart from that person!
This is so hard to write esp when the girls come into it - i fell pregnant but before i knew my family found out what he done to me - he battered me so hard one night i woke with severe brusing _that night i got drunk on vodka and i phoned my mum and aunt up -they came up and saw the state of me _- i then was told i was getting pick up in morning and i was going to live up north - my family tried so hard tokeep me away from him but love blind) i lasted two months up north and then i had a call that made me go back -he was dating my friends mum / i had to save her so i went back! That night i went over to his we had sex it wasnt making love he was very cold towards me - and that rip my heart out big time!
The next day a test confirm i was pregnant all things went through my head - ive didnt want to bring a baby into a bad relionship - the scan revealed i was 6 months pregnant hmm i was shocked i didnt look pregnant - i call him up and said i need to tell you some thing it wasnt romancetic etc it was im pregnant! He said good
Throughout my pregnancy it was metaly abuse nasty vile words) he did physcially slap me but nothing to big - i went to the friend i knew and sadlythe drugs after my oldest was born - i called it speed very good to keep slim he called me fat ugly hebrought ladies back and slept with them yes he made me feel low) fightening back i was 20 i had enough i was physcially gone debbie didnt exsist no more
Instead a very shy girl cameout i was took away from family friends i wasnt allowed make up that was no no - i had to wear what he liked only) cokecaine was his drug and if i loved him i would join him so i did there was fanastys etc and some i didi love him so much i believed it was love) but it wasnt i fought back big mistake he get me arrested say i was of my head -and one day he took are oldest -worse timeof my life very scary -he allowed me to see her for few hrs i had to gain his trust i did once i got that - i took my baby to my friends no names and i went into a solictors office i said please help me get my girl back i broke down and cried the solictors was so busy but they said we wil help you - taking my girl back to him one last night killed me - but i got full custody next day -
You always get ask why you go back and people judge u for it but he made out i was a mad case their good at it - i was a victim - my next pst will say how i escaped this has been hard to write _ thanku for alowing me to say my story) mysteryeyesxx
I met my children daddy in 2001 same yr i left school dec 17th i was 16 coming on 17 _ he was 20yrs older than me and i fell hook line and sinker _ i was very popular outgoing and very lively _ everything was very good until one night and that night he smashed my head agaist a brick wal voilently and it wasnt once - he then grab me by the throat and said your mine i was scared - all my power backbone went that night! He then took me back in his home where he voilenty kicked me in my back with steel cap boots on! By then i could feel i needed help - how i survive that attack i dont know myself! Was someone keeping me alive?
I had alot of injuries when i got into hosiptal i was in pretty bad way i was 18 me and the him stayed together i believe i could change him - silly hey nobody can change apart from that person!
This is so hard to write esp when the girls come into it - i fell pregnant but before i knew my family found out what he done to me - he battered me so hard one night i woke with severe brusing _that night i got drunk on vodka and i phoned my mum and aunt up -they came up and saw the state of me _- i then was told i was getting pick up in morning and i was going to live up north - my family tried so hard tokeep me away from him but love blind) i lasted two months up north and then i had a call that made me go back -he was dating my friends mum / i had to save her so i went back! That night i went over to his we had sex it wasnt making love he was very cold towards me - and that rip my heart out big time!
The next day a test confirm i was pregnant all things went through my head - ive didnt want to bring a baby into a bad relionship - the scan revealed i was 6 months pregnant hmm i was shocked i didnt look pregnant - i call him up and said i need to tell you some thing it wasnt romancetic etc it was im pregnant! He said good
Throughout my pregnancy it was metaly abuse nasty vile words) he did physcially slap me but nothing to big - i went to the friend i knew and sadlythe drugs after my oldest was born - i called it speed very good to keep slim he called me fat ugly hebrought ladies back and slept with them yes he made me feel low) fightening back i was 20 i had enough i was physcially gone debbie didnt exsist no more
Instead a very shy girl cameout i was took away from family friends i wasnt allowed make up that was no no - i had to wear what he liked only) cokecaine was his drug and if i loved him i would join him so i did there was fanastys etc and some i didi love him so much i believed it was love) but it wasnt i fought back big mistake he get me arrested say i was of my head -and one day he took are oldest -worse timeof my life very scary -he allowed me to see her for few hrs i had to gain his trust i did once i got that - i took my baby to my friends no names and i went into a solictors office i said please help me get my girl back i broke down and cried the solictors was so busy but they said we wil help you - taking my girl back to him one last night killed me - but i got full custody next day -
You always get ask why you go back and people judge u for it but he made out i was a mad case their good at it - i was a victim - my next pst will say how i escaped this has been hard to write _ thanku for alowing me to say my story) mysteryeyesxx
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